It's an Obama Nation!

So, this post is long overdue; I guess life has gotten a bit too busy lately.
For the first time in my life I've cared about politics, about the state of the world and I've done something about it. I donated to the campaign, I've rallied round my candidate and I am VERY PROUD to say: Obama is our new president!!!!! It speaks volumes about the people of the U.S. and what they have come to realize. We are the greatest nation in the world, filled with wonderful, talented people who want our kids & the future of our planet and our lives to be what we have imagined since we were children. We want better education, better overall welfare for every human, a system of government that gets us back to when things were "Made in the U.S.A.." I truly believe that Obama sees the things we need, is willing to listen and make the choices to get our nation back on track. I know he's only one man and can't do everything he may have promised us, but he is a great man who got millions of people to rally around his dream and believe in ourselves again. I really hope he continues to provide us with great hope for ourselves and for our new government.

ADD? Or do you not interest me?

I've noticed myself, more and more, drifting into other thoughts while people are involved in a conversation with me. It doesn't matter who's talking, I start thinking about what I'm going to wear to work tomorrow, what to make for dinner tonight, whether or not I my hair looks good. I'd like to think I don't have a attention deficit issue but...
Maybe all those bad things I did when I was younger have taken their toll on my precious little peanut.

Feeling disconnected

I'm not sure what it is with me. Am I out of touch with my friends? Am I being a bitch or too sensitive that I feel like we don't see eye-to-eye right now? I feel like I have no place with my friends. I may just be jealous. I have no boyfriend and I'm not sharing my friends well. Two of them are getting closer and I feel pushed aside. Maybe like I'll get replaced. and I know that they both love me but...it doesn't take this feeling away.
I am trying to figure out my feelings right now with everything and I feel lost. With my friends and with myself. I'm not quite sure how to deal with this because everything was going so good with my life and now I feel disconnected. The person I feel closest to is the one that I'm pushing away even though I love him. Why am I so ass-backwards?

I want...

I want a man who is confident in himself, but not cocky.
I want a man who will tell me "When I hear this song, it reminds me of you."
I want someone who can can cook.
Someone who takes care of himself and his life.
Someone who loves to stay in, make dinner and watch a movie as much as he likes to go out for a night on the town.
I want someone who is nice and sweet and creative and athletic and manly and thoughtful and chill.
I want someone who makes me smile each day and will be there for me no matter what.
He has to love music and enjoy going to concerts.
If he plays an instrument, is creative in his career, or rides a motorcycle - even better.
I want someone who wants to get married and start a life with me.
and I know I deserve all of these things and more.

Its' you, not me

You say you love me, but not enough
her afflictions to you have just been too much
you walk around like you are so upset, get over yourself, this i will not bet
you talk of feelings you don't want to hurt
if you'd look past yourself, you'd realize your worth
i've given you my heart, my soul and my touch
obviously these things just aren't enough
letting go will be the hardest thing
moving on to see what else life can bring
so i'll go on with myself a little bit worn
hopefully the next man will not harbor such scorn.

I will miss you and our "happy little family" more than you will ever realize.

Is Love Enough?

In the age of marriages that never last, is it even worth it to get married? Can love be enough to sustain a relationship without the need for rings and parties and promises?
For me, I want to have a life with someone; to be committed to someone and have that person there at the end of the day to lean on, no matter what kind of day I've had. I've always dreamed of getting married, I suppose it's just that natural progression in life that tugs at my heart. I associate having that ultimate relationship with the ring that goes along with it, the house that we build with one another & the dogs (kids) that we raise together. Is there a need for marriage if the relationship is great? Isn't the love between us be enough that we can be happy enough?
I'm really hoping it is.

Conversation in the lunch room today

A: I think he's gay, he always wears a pink polo, his pants hiked-up all the way and those weird shoes.
T: He went to a restaurant that only serves penis. Of course he's gay.



* Speaking about Andrew Zimmer and his choice of fashion & food.

She doesn't know anymore

She doesn't know her own face anymore
She can't keep up with the fast pace anymore
her mind is running circles round her life, she can't distinguish what is real and what is right
she can hardly survive herself, let alone her children who are trying to help her fight
It's hard to watch from so far, I can only imagine the fight growing inside your head,
you want to run but only find comfort in your bed
What can I do and where should we go?
There is only so much I can know
before you give up this fight with these aching bones you're not really mending
I'm really sick of pretending that everything is gonna be ok
because it won't be that way if you don't try to fight harder
this here sickness has got you down, don't let it get any farther
it gets me so frustrated, this same argument we've been down
I don't know about you, but it's thrown me on the ground
helpless and angry - nothing i can do and no one to save me
Please get back up and start fighting or else before long it'll take over.

Realtionships, what do I know?

Hmmm, where do I even start? I, of all people, have no room to talk about other peoples' relationships. And I guess that's what I want to say.
Every relationship has their own issues, and unless we are in that relationship, we really have no right to judge others for who they go after or which person has made their heart flutter.
The important thing, is to be there for your friend when they need you to listen to what they are going through. Sometimes they don't even want advice from you, they just want a sympathetic ear to say, "Yeah, maybe it is tough, but sometimes it's worth it to find out ."
It irks me when people think that they are right about what their friend should do. Yes, we never want our friend to be hurt, but who are we to say that the decisions they've made are wrong? Sometimes it's that hurt that finds us the right person. It may not be from that relationship they're having troubles with but it makes that person stronger for the next person to come along.
I say go for it, you never know until you try.

It's Better Late than Never?

Hello blog-o-sphere! I have arrived. I know, blogging isn't "cool" anymore. But for those of you who know me, know that I don't follow the trends when they're in.
My brother always said I was a little slow.