The Secrets That We Keep

Everyone has their secrets, some have more than others. Some people choose to keep secrets from themselves, others from lovers and friends. I like to think that I don't have that many secrets, I like to lay it all on the line and let people take me for what I'm worth.
I have a friend though, let's call her Annie, who keeps secrets from everyone. She'll tell one person part of the story and another person another part of the story. She doesn't think we'll get together and discuss it and find out the whole truth by pasting our segments together. What I want to know is - WHY? We're best friends - the people you should be able to trust with how you live you life. But you aren't telling us the real you. You're hiding from us and deceiving us and sometimes yourself. Why cause yourself all this trouble by creating an "alternate you" and then fretting over it. It must be exhausting trying to remember who you told what to, and what you have to omit from the other conversations.
Just make it easy on yourself Annie, tell people how you feel, be honest with them and maybe they'll trust you a little more. You won't truly find what you're searching for in life until you do this...and I think that's long way off. Sorry to say it, you have some work to do girl.

If I weren't going to be stuck in the office all alone...

These are the bands I'd see at Coachella:
Friday -
FRANZ FERDINAND
Silversun Pickups
M.Ward

Saturday-
THIEVERY CORPORATION
Band of Horses
Fleet Foxes
Blitzen trapper
TRV$DJ-AM (just to see what they sound like)

Sunday-
The Cure
Paul Weller!!
Groove Armada
Roni Size!

And to make matters worse, my other coworker will be in Costa Rica.
I'll definitely be daydreaming about far-away places! I'm SO Jealous.

The Grass is Green Over Here

I like my life. I love my boyfriend, my dog, my family & my friends. (My job is o.k. too.) Everything is going great and I'm taking it all in and appreciating every last bit of it. Thank you world for delivering me happiness right now. I do appreciate it.
And just in case you haven't seen it yet...this is hilarious!

Remember When?

Remember when you were young and the only thing mattered were your friends (and getting good grades, of course.) You goofed around in a no-holds-bar kind of way. Something, as you grow older, seems to slip away. I have to admit, I miss that. I miss my friends being that rock all the time. Don't get me wrong, if there was ever a problem my girls would be there for me in a heartbeat. But as we grow older we get married, or have a significant other that takes our time and maybe those issues you used to dish about goes to them. They become that ever-lasting ear that listens and your friends get the leftovers that you don't mind repeating. Hopefully the man you're with is a best friend also - but there is nothing in life like the feeling you get when you spend some quality time with your BF. Just laughing, chatting, goofing around; enjoying each other and taking the harshness out of the day. I need some of that. And, maybe, I need to be honest about how I'm feeling.

It's an Obama Nation!

So, this post is long overdue; I guess life has gotten a bit too busy lately.
For the first time in my life I've cared about politics, about the state of the world and I've done something about it. I donated to the campaign, I've rallied round my candidate and I am VERY PROUD to say: Obama is our new president!!!!! It speaks volumes about the people of the U.S. and what they have come to realize. We are the greatest nation in the world, filled with wonderful, talented people who want our kids & the future of our planet and our lives to be what we have imagined since we were children. We want better education, better overall welfare for every human, a system of government that gets us back to when things were "Made in the U.S.A.." I truly believe that Obama sees the things we need, is willing to listen and make the choices to get our nation back on track. I know he's only one man and can't do everything he may have promised us, but he is a great man who got millions of people to rally around his dream and believe in ourselves again. I really hope he continues to provide us with great hope for ourselves and for our new government.

ADD? Or do you not interest me?

I've noticed myself, more and more, drifting into other thoughts while people are involved in a conversation with me. It doesn't matter who's talking, I start thinking about what I'm going to wear to work tomorrow, what to make for dinner tonight, whether or not I my hair looks good. I'd like to think I don't have a attention deficit issue but...
Maybe all those bad things I did when I was younger have taken their toll on my precious little peanut.

Feeling disconnected

I'm not sure what it is with me. Am I out of touch with my friends? Am I being a bitch or too sensitive that I feel like we don't see eye-to-eye right now? I feel like I have no place with my friends. I may just be jealous. I have no boyfriend and I'm not sharing my friends well. Two of them are getting closer and I feel pushed aside. Maybe like I'll get replaced. and I know that they both love me but...it doesn't take this feeling away.
I am trying to figure out my feelings right now with everything and I feel lost. With my friends and with myself. I'm not quite sure how to deal with this because everything was going so good with my life and now I feel disconnected. The person I feel closest to is the one that I'm pushing away even though I love him. Why am I so ass-backwards?