Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Shine on, you crazy diamond

Really? I'm not even sure. Tempers rise, defense is taken, things get left unsaid. What is really important anymore? Is it time or quality? And what if you're not getting either? I wish I weren't so high-maintenance, maybe then I'd be more understanding. Or maybe I need to find my own things to do. Maybe I didn't sign up for this. Maybe, I just expected something different. And expectations are the killer - we should just lay it all on the line before we start. Listen, so and so, I expect this from you, can you deliver? No, ok, I'm out. Yes, well, then lets start something. And it's easy to forget about the little things, 4 years in and you are just going about your business. You don't remember to do those little things that made the start so special, and the other person is to blame too. It's no ones fault, but who's to stop the madness and make things right before it goes too far. You? him? All I know now is that I miss the run-jump-hug. The gazelle. All the time we took for ourselves. Maybe things always get like this, with all couples, and I'm just taking it too hard. But I miss the old us, with our tight bond and the love that outshone all the diamonds in the world. Why did it have to fade? Can we get it back?

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